I’ve always written down my thoughts or feelings whenever I am sad , hurt or angry. I feel it can help ease the pain and frustration towards a person and will diffuse the situation.
I am a 46 year old, mother of 3 boys and married. I’ve lived a life of experiences from divorced parents, young mother, abuse, love, poverty and money. The mistakes and lessons I’ve learned over the years has helped me understand what others are going through.
Right now, my life is upside down and hanging by a thread. My marriage is in shambles and I am losing friends over it. I’m trying to make everything ok and keep them all happy but it’s at the expense of my mental health and happiness. I’m at a point that I’m starting to crack. I’m learning hard lessons and have been fighting them for the sake of my family. I am losing myself and it keeps me in the dark place that I hate so much.
I decided I would start a blog. Not for attention but for clarity, an outlet from the pain and in hopes it’ll help me build myself up again. I write about my feelings anyways, I might as well do it here and maybe it’ll connect with someone. We can help each other. One thing I know is that although I hate bothering anyone with my problems is that you need to share and learn from others with their experiences.
What else can I lose? I would hate to know what rock bottom is if I’m not there right now. I don’t want to hurt anymore and I don’t want to hurt anyone else.
My thoughts exactly 